Friday, March 20, 2009

Unbelievable!

stupidest thing just happened yesterday.My mom told me that this sunday would be the last Charm cheer practice i'm having till PMR is over.Yup,that's right ppl,no more cheering for me.No more wushu for me,no more interact club for me,and definitely no more cheering for me.Why? cuz i got a B for History.Blardy hell!! She should be like FREAKING happy man if i get a B for History!! cuz i normally get Cs,Ds,and i nearly failed once... so yea! i was like what the hell?? yea,and she's knows very well that i'm supposed to be performing for cheer 09! urgh! And my dad isn't doing any restricting..he's just like,oh,ok when i told him my results. Life's SUCH A BITCH SOMETIMES!! ARGH! do u know,cheer is where i let all my STRESS out?!?!?! It's the only time where i can like have freedom and feel good about myself! Cheer is something that i really really REALLY like,i mean,i might not be good at it,but i like it! And she's stopping me frm going. And she wants me to stay at home and study all the time.HMP! well,2 can play this game too! If she thinks that stoping me frm cheer and studying at home all the time is gonna get my grades up again,she is sooo BLOODY wrong.Good luck with me returning to my normal self again.I don't even enjoy eating anymore.I nearly threw up when i thought about eating.And i nearly threw the book AWAY! when i saw it.I know you ppl are thinking ' seesh,such a drama queen man,..she's like obsessed with cheer' well ya know something? I myself don't know why my body is doing this to me kay? I just don't have a way of relieving my stress anymore! All this tension is just building inside! I am not the kind of person that can sit at home and study all day everyday. And if she pushes me any further about studying,she is gonna either wish she hadn't stopped me from cheer or she is just gonna wish she NVR had me as a daughter.Because I'm nt promising her anything.You know she FORCED me into an agreement whereby 'i stop cheer the minute my grades drop'.Jesus Christ pls help me not to say anything mean because it was either that stupid agreement,or if i don't agree to that,i'll have to stop cheer IMMEDIATELY! and i couldn't wriggle out of it beacause she was being sooo freaking serious about it,and she just wouldn't drop it! I'm the kind of person that can ACTUALLY go insane if i have to sit home and study ALL THE TIME.I'm sure ALOT of you can tell....I BET u i will lose damn alot of weight if she really puts me through this.She can chose,either me being healthy,normal,jumpy,and not so smart,or Straight As all the time,extra smart,slightly 'off'(if u noe what i mean),quiet,skinny, not eating healthy at all and tired me.So choose. She can't have both smart and normal me.She has NO idea about whats coming for her.To make things worse,i don't see my brother very often,i don't talk to him about ANYTHING,we have NOTHING in common,and my closest friend are all in charm.So,who do i blow the steam of at?who do i talk to when i'm sad?who do i release my psycho-ness at? the wall?? cuz my dad doesn't talk to me very much at home,he'd rather me leave to college as soon as i can and he doesn' like me very much,and how do i know that? cuz he LITERALLY said it to my face. So good luck to my mother.I may not even be seeing her anymore after this if it actually continues.Cuz i have no reason to go over to her house anymore since i'll be studying ALL DAY LONG. I have no purpose to look at her even.I'm not being a drama queen,but i'm serious.I have a throbbing headache,my eyes are swelled up frm crying last night(i don't even know why i cryed) and i feel like such a moron for letting charm down for cheer 09.To make it worse,i'm letting myself down.The decision is in my mom's hands.I'm not talking to her about it,because when i'm not raising my voice but simply telling her that i'll do fine in my nest exam bt not if she restricts me,she tells me 'Cheng Sim,you don't use that tone with me,u hear me?' Oh,whatever,through with dealing with her.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Maple leaves are green,yellow,orange,and brown!! :D

boo!!!! didn't scare yea did i? haha!! sooo sorry,i'm at a very psychotic stage of my life right now...One of those uber hyper moments...hehe!! hmm,yesterday... ...Gym was at Cineleisure. :D sounds like one of my pure nonsensical nonsense right? No,actually,gym really was in Cineleisure...NO i am NOT freaking kidding u..It's not even funny man.. but,of course we didn't like tumble on the floor la!! Duh,we just did stunts... oh,practice was there cuz every1 was at the booth helping out and stuff,so they won't be able to just leave the booth there rite,so we decided,why not just change the venue? and so..we did..and BLARDY HELL!! Ppl just stood there and watched and i'm like,uh...Why are they looking? then i just totally snapped out of my totally blur and bimbotic moment,and i realized..DUH!!! UR STUNTING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CONCOURSE AREA IN A FREAKING MALL !!!!! OF COURSE PPL WILL WATCH!!! My gosh,I actually felt like thumping myself on the head real hard for that :P hahha!! anyways,i'm still like playing around the new face book and exploring it..hmm,still tryin' to figure out how'ta write 'notes' hehe..bah,i'll figure it out 1 day..screw it,couldn't be bothered to sit in front of the computer and go to facebook just to figure it out...hehe! hmm,blablablablabla... And like,NATALYN TIANG!!! U MUST be mistaken...That girl in your team,the 1 whose name is Ch'ng Xin and that 'looks like me' and 'is like me' is NOT like me!! we don't even look the same!! well,frm what i saw.. :P i will admit,her name is kinda the same as mine...but that's it!! haha... Oh,and the other day,Ee Meng based Yee Ming! Isn't that soo cool? get it? Ee Meng,Yee Ming? :P teeheeheee!!! k la.. i will go about my hyperness and do somethingelse cuz i have nothing else to blog about :D bye!!!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

funny videosys :D

haha! some singaporean thing...




JJ and Ean's parody of 'IF I Were The Boss'



some awesome pool shit!!! ehem, not shit in a pool yea.....



Hahaha!! I stole it frm Elainey's blog :P sooo funny i actually hit my head on the chair frm laughing !!!!



hehe! ever see pilots drag and drift a plane before? :P



Japanese Game show :D Mag showed it to me :D




bahahaha!!! got this frm debra! watch and laugh ur butt off!!! Orlando Bloom (Eat shit and Die)



hahahha,doing this cuz i'm bored outta my mind :D enjoy!! :P

Excited!!!!

hey hey! :D I'm getting more and more anxious and rather impatient on getting my D90!!! hehe,and i saw the 70 300 mm lens today for only rm 599!!! crazy rite?? damn cheap!!! hehe,hmm,i saw the new iPod nano..I want 1!!!!!!!!!! hahah!!! it's soooo pretty!!!! hahahhaa!! damn thin...oh,and u noe,today,went to OU,and near mac city,this lady was lying on the floor and she was like salivating and all,and she was kinda hust paralyzed on the floor...and she's like in her late 40s,malay..and her old aged parents were kneeling down wiping off the saliva and calming her down and what not,and i felt sooo bad cuz i honestly didn't know what to do!! She was just laying ther so helplessly and her parents just didn't know what to do,but they were calm though...poor thing right? bt some lady came and helped and i had to go at that moment,so i couldn't really do anything... :( i felt sooo bad.... hmm,anyways,c3 is coming up!! Ppl,pls come to Cineleisure Damansara on the 22nd of March to come watch and support kay? :D oh,and there is this really awesome song that is pretty cool! :D it's on my mp3 player! have a listen to it! it's called another heart calls by the all american rejects featuring the pierces... oh!!! and sa yi bought me this pair of pants frm nike! i really liked it!! we were in OU and i saw it frm outside and i tried it on and then i really liked it and so i bought it cuz it looked like it would be usefull for cheer or gym..but when i got home,i realized why those pair of pants looked kinda familiar.. same pants as Mel Campbell ... =.= Sorry Mel!!! I'm reall sorry!! haha.. gosh,i feel sooo bad.. pls don't let her hate me!!!!! feeling kinda like a copy cat =.=


Do you remember when we didn't care?
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there

Do you remember you at all?
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake dreaming 'til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you

As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It's time you see my point of view

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do
Say It's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you



anyways,i'm out :) bye!!!

-xoxo Csim-

ps: cbn's 100th birthday was fun :) especially with my psycho classmates whom i love vey much :)

Monday, March 9, 2009

because u told me so

ok! I'm only doing this cz all u ppl are bugging me to update =.= grr..hahha! hmm
anyways,i actually have nothing to update on...sorry..sooo lazy nowadays....hmm well,i'll hopefully be getting my nikon D90 by April!! yay!! muahahahaha!!! hehe..uh,other then that? well,the C3 workshop was fun! hahahha,maggie came 2!!! hahah,and marcus kept poking her knee which i found so disgusting n painful..i mean,u try watching some big,buff guy poke the knee of a girl who dislocated her knee!!! hahahhaa...anyways,oh! ATTENTION PPL! PLS GO TO CINELEISURE AND MAKE UR WAY TO THE CHARM BOOTH TO BUY OUR MERCHANDISE!!!! y wud u have to listen to me n go there n buy our stuff?? cz i said soo!!!! hahhaha..well,we're raising funds for c3..so yea..haha...and PLS COME TO C3 AT CINELEISURE ON THE 22ND OF MARCH PPL!!! COME AND SUPPORT US!! then u may bring tons of roses,a 3 million US dollar cheque signed to me and kiss my feet!!! MUAHAHHAHAHA!!!! no la,just joking,just come to c3 k? there u have it ppl! ur update!! k,gtg now,bye!